我的十年 ... My past decade

(English at the bottom)
明天即將踏入 2020s 年代。

以前有一套電視劇的對白是：

「人生有幾多個十年？」

成為傳頌一時的佳話；

中國古語也有云：

「十年人事幾番新」，

因此，近日自己亦反思，

過去的十年，

是過了怎樣的一個「十年」。

回想這十年，

是自己人生中轉變最大的十年：

因為從全職工作的黃金期，

逐步退出至加入全職煮婦之列；

從多年不變的工作崗位，

轉而進出幾個不同機構與崗位。

每次轉變，

都是新挑戰、新學習、新歷練。

這亦符合了我期望能夠在退休前，

獲取多些不同的工作經驗，

豐富人生的經歷。

這十年，

自己亦調整了人生的焦點：

從工作至歸回上主，

從自己計畫下一個目標，
轉為順服上主的帶領，隨遇而安；
從經歷種種驚濤駭浪，

到經歷上主的恩典。

至於最大的恩典，
莫過於母親決志信主，
更自發地、清楚地說要返教會及洗禮！
她完全改變了昔日迷信的態度，
亦因此令她與家人的關係復和。
這十年，

我也跟好些親友重新恢復了聯繫。

這十年，

也開展了重新認識自己的階段。

這十年，我和媽媽的關係日益密切，

她希望將來仍能與我在一起，

所以堅決明確地表示要返教會、洗禮，

盼望將來與我在天家重聚！

那麼下一個「十年」將會如何？

沒有人可以預測。

社會前境不明朗，

只有以信心與忍耐踏上未來之旅。

近期分別於三天，

在同一位置中看見三種截然不同的晨光 ─

有黑暗中的一線曙光；

有一望無際的金光；

有灰暗密雲中透出的隙光；

哪種情景，

可以代表這一刻的心情呢？

2019.12.17  6:39 a.m.

 2019.12.26  7:32 a.m.

2019.12.28   9:22 a.m.

A decade

Tomorrow is another new decade, I thus took a moment to reflect on the past decade of my life:

In the past decade, the greatest change for me was to gradually convert from full-time work into the present housewife-kind of life; from working in the same post to working in different posts. For every change, there were new challenges, new learning, and new experiences. These were also what I had hoped to experience before retirement.

In the last decade, I have also witnessed the shift of my life focus from work as my master to the Lord as my master; from planning my next goal to submitting to the plans of the Lord and rest in His guidance; from experiencing storms to grace of the Lord. The greatest grace is my mother’s spontaneous decision to go to church and be baptized. The absolute change in her belief has also brought about reunion among family members. In the past decade, I have also reconnected with old friends and relatives who have lost contact for a long time.

What will happen in the next decade of my life? Nobody could foresee the future. As the social prospect is unclear and stormy, I could only step into the next decade with faith and endurance, which I think are the lessons that I need to learn, apart from many others.

Recently, I saw three different types of scenery on three mornings:

morning ray amidst darkness, golden glory amidst clear sky, and crepuscular rays spilling from thick clouds. Which scene could best describe my feelings at this moment?

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